Chapter 4. Too Much Woman

By Gonzalo

I felt a very deep discomfort.

I saw the tears fall down Eli's cheeks the night I left her and how she sat down when a contraction came on, perhaps because of the pain it was causing her.

I realized that even though I avoided looking at her belly, I remember it perfectly.

Eli is too much of a woman to give a child up for adoption, no matter how lonely and desperate she may be.

That's how I left her, alone and desperate.

With Mati being super jealous.

I feel like something is wrong with me.

Then I looked at Sonia who did a striptease for me and the discomfort began to fade until I remembered one that Eli did for me in a hotel room where we went once.

My wife has an amazing body!

That warmth in her love, that passion with which she gave herself to me.

I look at Sonia, she's sexy, yes, and she turns me on like no one else, I chose the best.

In Italy I wanted to go to the Leaning Tower of Pisa, but I couldn't convince Sonia either.

The Borghese Museum is located in Rome.

I couldn't see it either.

He didn't even want to go to the Vatican; it's not that he's too religious, but I remember a conversation with Elizabeth when I told her that we were going to renew our vows at the Vatican.

Maybe I didn't deserve to see the Vatican.

Although I would have loved to visit St. Peter's Square.

We ended up again on a nudist beach in Rome, Capocotta Beach, and two days later on Guvano Beach. It's a beautiful beach, although a bit secluded, and it's private.

We hired a girl to have a threesome with us.

I didn't even want to go to Venice anymore.

I notice that Sonia is very empty-headed; she never wanted to go to a museum.

We always go to beaches and for night walks.

I realized I had a better time when we were with someone else; with the girl, she resembled Elizabeth.

It must be the habit of so many years by his side.

It's not that I'm already bored with Sonia.

When I wanted to know more about her, she didn't tell me anything specific.

He had only finished high school, I asked him what year he finished it, I could have done the math, but we were talking and he changed the subject.

She only told me that she had worked as a promoter a few times and nothing more.

He doesn't speak any other language, only Spanish.

Near the end of our trip, we stopped for two days in England and I still couldn't go to the British Museum.

—It's very boring.

That's all.

He's not interested in too many things, just buying clothes; he didn't even want to buy a notebook, just a cell phone.

It also has to do with the fact that I'm quite a bit older than Sonia, and that's probably why girls these days are like that.

I remembered Eli's 25th birthday, with family and friends, with our son on her lap.

Always so sweet, and then that night we went to a hotel. My blood raced just thinking about my wife, so sensual, so beautiful, so sexy…

When I saw Sonia in front of me, shouting at me because I didn't answer her right away.

—Sorry, I got distracted.

—You have to pay attention to me always.

—Yes, my love.

—I was telling you that as soon as I give you the divorce, we're going to get married.

I looked at her in terror.

If he had told me that the day I left my wife, I would have run straight to the civil registry.

I wasn't so sure anymore that Sonia was the woman of my life.

And of course, I wouldn't want to get married to have an open relationship, swap partners, and bring a third person into my marital bed.

This is something of the moment.

I was startled by my thought.

Something from the moment.

At least it helped me realize how dull my life with Elizabeth was.

She was always so perfect that it bored me.

It's not that she was submissive, she wasn't.

Since I didn't want her to work, I decided to take two law courses per semester.

At the time I told her that as long as she didn't neglect Matías and was always available for me, I had no problem; I made it clear that I didn't want to see books or notes lying around.

I don't know why I was always so rude; maybe I said it in a nice way, but I always wanted to impose my will.

Quite the opposite of what happens with Sonia; I let her do her thing, decide for herself.

I never found out if he ended up studying law; I didn't bother to ask him, even though I was sure he was the love of my life.

Obviously it wasn't.

I was never attentive enough to her for it to be that way.

Sonia, on the other hand, bent my will.

But he was no longer so sure he wanted to always be by her side.

The sex was wonderful.

I think for a moment and I don't know if I was referring to Eli or Sonia when I remember that the sex was wonderful.

I look at the bombshell next to me and I'm sure she's the one I have the best time with. Besides, we have threesomes, we swap partners. I think we did it because she liked another man, which bothers me a little. Then I remember the blonde who was in my arms the other nights and the annoyance disappears.

The memory of that blonde mutates, transforms into the memory of Elizabeth.

I would never have allowed Eli to end up in someone else's arms.

However, I realize that she is young, that even though she is a mother and divorced, she is alone; I myself asked her for a divorce. She can choose another man, she can find someone else to love.

Someone who wants to come home and hold her in their arms.

My heart just broke into a thousand pieces.

I don't understand anything.

I look at Sonia, she is beautiful, striking, imposing.

Obviously I wasn't wrong, I tell myself that over and over again.

—You stayed silent. What's wrong?

—Nothing, honey, it's just that the divorce is going to take a while to come through.

—Oh no, I want to get married right away.

—It depends on the judge, on the laws, Eli has to sign.

My voice breaks when I say that Eli has to sign the divorce papers.

—I'm going to go personally and tell him not to be an idiot and sign quickly. Who does he think he is?

I was frightened at the thought of Sonia showing up at home.

Eli is patient, but everything has its limits.

I cannot allow Sonia to go home.

—Linda, I'll take care of that.

—Get busy, and fast. Why else would you have separated?

—To be with you, I do everything I tell you.

—I hope so, you know I'm impatient.

Without knowing why, a chill ran down my spine.

—It's unfair, you asked me to separate so we could be together and I did, I promised you a trip around the world and I took you, I keep my promises.

—Sorry baby, it's just that it upsets me to come home and keep living in such a small apartment, I'd like to have a house to share together.

—Give me some time, as soon as I can, I'll buy a house.

—But the apartment is small and I don't think you're comfortable enough, it's because of you….

—It's so nice that you think of me. As long as I'm by your side, I'm happy.

I said it hoping to see his expression.

He made a face that I didn't like.

No matter how much she takes my breath away and excites me like crazy, I'd have to be an idiot not to realize how self-serving Sonia is.

With her, everything is fixed with gifts, dinners, or outings.

Since I have money, and lots of it, that doesn't worry me.

I don't like that she's self-serving, but that's how it is.

I remember the times I wanted to achieve something or have an argument with Eli; the way to win arguments was with kisses and caresses and a flower.

I think if I give Sonia a flower or a bouquet of flowers, she'll throw it at my head.