Chapter 3. I Think of Eli

By Gonzalo

I don't know when everything ended with Elizabeth.

Yes I know.

When I met Sonia, she practically threw herself into my arms.

I hesitated to be unfaithful to Elizabeth; I never had been. I believed in marriage and we were happy. But Sonia was so sexy, so shameless, with that body that called to give me pleasure, that I succumbed to my desire and soon made her my lover.

When I got home, I felt like the routine was consuming me, that Matías was always in the middle of my marriage, and that Eli's belly was growing too much; there were no positions where I could make love comfortably, I had to be careful not to hurt her or the baby.

And Sonia gave me everything in bed, we even did it with her friends.

At home he always said he had a lot of work, and my wife never asked, "Did she realize I had a mistress?"

One day I told Sonia that I couldn't see her at the time she wanted, because I had to accompany my wife, who was having an ultrasound.

It made such a scene that in the end I didn't go with Elizabeth.

Eli didn't reproach me for anything.

Better, it was easier.

That's when Sonia started demanding more from me.

He asked me to separate.

At first I wasn't convinced, Eli was pregnant, Mati was very jealous of the belly and felt that he needed me.

Sonia didn't care much about my reasons and started telling me that she would leave me if I didn't break up with her.

I even promised her a trip around the world so she wouldn't leave me.

Damn, Sonia really turned me on.

When I went home that night and Matías was asleep, I decided to talk to him.

Her tears hurt me, but I still told her she was pathetic.

I don't know why I treated her so badly.

I am aware that he didn't deserve it; he lived for me and breathed the air I left behind.

I know her love for me was immense, but my love for her had ended.

I asked her not to call me; I don't want to have problems with Sonia.

I thought that in a few days Elizabeth would call me, that she would beg me to come back to her and I would tell her that I was in a relationship.

He didn't call me.

I don't understand why I think about Elizabeth so much.

It is my conscience that tells me how badly I behaved.

Eli is always so...ladylike that she wasn't going to allow herself to beg me, I should have known.

He'll eat his elbows before he calls me.

I also made it clear to her that I didn't want to see Matias; I know Eli will get along perfectly well with our son.

She is an intelligent, cultured, determined woman who can handle any situation, that's why I admire her.

I am startled and then I think that even though I no longer love her, it doesn't change the fact that she is full of virtues, yes, she has virtues, many, many, that's why I loved her and that's why she was my wife.

That deep maternal love she feels for our son will help him cope with our separation.

As long as they're comfortable at home, they'll be fine.

—I'm traveling tomorrow.

I tell my father.

—Did you really ask him for a divorce?

—Yes, it's the best.

—Are you leaving and she's about to give birth?

I feel a jolt inside me.

"Sonia matters too much to me," I repeat to myself over and over.

—It's Elizabeth who's going to have the baby, not me.

—I don't recognize you anymore, all the fuss you made when I remarried after being a widower for 5 years, and now you leave your pregnant wife.

I knew she was going to hold that against me.

—I was young and didn't understand that love ends.

—Your relationship ended abruptly, I hope you don't regret it when the lust you feel for that woman passes.

—When we get back, I'll introduce you to her.

—For now, my house is only open to the mother of your children.

—You're being unfair, you're giving me back what I deserve.

—No, I am respecting your wife and your children.

—You have to respect me.

—When you deserve it, yes, but leaving your pregnant wife to go after who knows who…excuse me, but you have to earn respect, as a man.

—I work and besides, I didn't leave anyone helpless.

—You were very unmanly, I feel sorry for you, Elizabeth is a great woman.

—I don't love her anymore.

—However, she deserved to be accompanied until the birth, she deserves respect.

—I'm sorry, I can't lose Sonia, out of respect for a woman who no longer means anything to me.

—I'm sorry to hear you speak like this, you're going to hit your head against the wall much sooner than you think.

—You don't know Sonia, she's...incredible.

—Enjoy your trip.

I left my father's office with an anguish I didn't understand.

I'm going to live my life and you rarely come across a woman like Eli... I mean Sonia, I hope I never get her name mixed up, maybe it's a good idea to give her a nickname to avoid confusion.

Suddenly I think that she, Sonia, always calls me baby and a feeling of distrust floods my mind.

That's just how affectionate she is.

I think and I calm down.

I arrived at the apartment earlier and she wasn't there.

She arrived a little tipsy, I didn't like that, but oh well, she must have said goodbye to her friends.

We went to sleep early and without having sex; the truth is I needed to rest and the next day we were leaving for abroad.

At the airport, she attracted the attention of many men; it was a source of pride to be with such a woman, others desired her, and she was mine.

Of course, Elizabeth was also looked at; she's unique.

Damn, my ex-wife is on my mind again.

On the plane, Sonia treated a flight attendant badly.

I felt a little embarrassed; sometimes he's disoriented and speaks loudly.

We finally arrived in Spain, at each stop I bought her what she asked for, it seemed like Mati always wanted everything she saw.

We had a lot of fun, we had dinner at the hotel and went for walks, as we were in Barcelona and they were playing at home, I wanted to go see the game, but Sonia didn't want me to go.

I wanted to go to the Barcelona History Museum, but he didn't want to go either.

She prefers to sleep during the day and go dancing at night.

I understand, we're on vacation.

We also went to Cantabria to Valdearena beach, it's a nudist beach, I was wearing shorts but Sonia was completely naked, I enjoyed seeing her and how other men looked at her, of course I also looked at the scenery, there were very beautiful women.

At one point she suggested that I looked at other women, and she did the same thing.

He looked at men and women indiscriminately, we talked about it and he understood my position.

We ended up in a more private area where partner swapping took place.

I wasn't entirely convinced, but Sonia insisted, saying that's how the passion between us was kept alive.

That's when I saw a statuesque blonde and immediately thought of Eli.

I ended up having sex with that blonde.

I've never experienced sex so freely.

I love it, and I also loved that blonde, so similar to my blonde.

God...she's not my blonde anymore.

I get anxious thinking about her. What if one day she decides to do what I was doing?

No, she would never do something like that.

That's why I left, because everything was boring to me.

However, he had a certain peace of mind knowing that he would never end up in the arms of a stranger.

Well, the peace of mind was because she is the mother of my children.

That night we ended up arguing with Sonia; she wanted to leave with someone else and for me to watch.

No sir, in life everything has to be equal.

We went to France and I managed to go up the Eiffel Tower, but I couldn't visit the Louvre museum.

It bothered me a little, because there are beaches and shopping everywhere.

When I wanted to buy Matías a toy, he made such a scene that I decided not to buy him anything.

—We had agreed that you would never see that brat again.

—I ask that you speak more respectfully about my son.

—You yourself complained about him.

—However, he is still my son.

—You can do what I did, the first time I got pregnant I gave it up for adoption as soon as it was born and forgot about the pig.

—Did you give a child up for adoption?

—Yes, and they paid me very good money, but the next two times I got pregnant, I had an abortion.