Chapter 5: Dejected

Here I was, heartbroken and dejected. Alpha Roman didn't care about the fact that I had passed out, he thrusted deep into me violently, moaning out ecstatically.

I regain consciousness after he had deeply penetrated me. As a virgin, the pain was too much for me and he didn't also take it easy on me. He had a big phallus and that helped worsened the matter.

My eyes were swollen, I had gotten exhausted from crying.

"The more you cry, the more pleasurable it becomes." He said and let out a mischievous grin.

"Ohh! Please, stop it." I could only shout in pain and awe of the condition, hoping for some sort of miracle to happen.

In no time, he was already thrusting in and out of me mercilessly, not giving me anytime to adjust to his size.

Roman thrusted into me like a beast, his pace was paranormal, it made the bed shake like it was going to break the next second. All I could do was just to cry and beg him.

He inserted his index finger into my anal region, making me cry in pain and humiliation. Here was my mate, fully taking advantage of my vulnerability to his own satisfaction.

The pain was so much, I couldn't take it anymore.

"Please, stop this Alpha Roman, remember that I'm your mate for crying out loud." I cried out helplessly.

What was his gain in doing this to me?

"Well, it just seems like I just began because I'm not going to stop anytime soon." He spoke throaty amidst moans.

Was this my fate? Was this how I was going to end? I knew that I was going to pass out at any second if he didn't stop.

"Alpha, please stop this, I can't take it anymore." I shouted out in pain yet, he showed not even an iota of compassion.

"You better start getting used to this, you wolf less slut." He pressed my neck really hard like he wanted to suffocate me. His eyes were filled with extreme hatred and venom for me.

Did the moon goddess intentionally create me without a wolf?

"You belong to me Catriona, I can use you however I desire. You were created specially for me, to be my slaved." He shouted angrily and increased his pace again.

Maybe, he was right. I was created to suffer.

"I wish we never crossed path." I didn't know when those words escaped my mouth. I was tired of the whole thing already.

The pains I was facing were absolutely indescribable. My whole body was sore and covered with bruises and blood.

"Wishes aren't horses, this is your reality." He laughed out at me in mockery.

I cried, I was sad that I had to pass through this pain. If my parents hadn't rejected and sold me, I wouldn't had been passing through this.

I couldn't stare him in the eye, he looked ruthless and merciless, ready to destroy a soul. Here he was, exploring my virgin body to his satisfaction, not minding my pain.

He grabbed me by the jaw and spat into my mouth.

"You can't hide your pain from me Catriona because I'm just beginning." With that, he thrusted inside of me deeper, moaning out in sadistic pleasure.

My mate was a sadist.

"Stop it, I beg of you." I cried out in pain, trying to push him off my body yet he didn't relent.

Did I even stand a chance with him in strength?

No, I didn't. I only had to wail and beg him but he was taking any of that, he only wanted to leave his sadistic mark inside me

Finally after what seemed like an eternity, his body shook violently and he released his loads of cum inside my womanhood.

At that moment, I felt used, I felt like a whore. I wanted to keep my virginity as a gift to my mate but unfortunately, this sadistic creature just took it away from me violently.

Ohh! My dignity is gone.

He sat down at the couch beside the bed, trying to catch his breath. His whole body was filled with sweat and traces of blood could be seen on his body and mouth. His urge was animalistic and insane.

I could only sit on the bed and wail in tears, my sufferings had just begun, this monster couldn't be my mate.

He finally stood up from the couch, cleaned himself up with the towel and walked out after giving me another warning.

"Your horrific days are here to stay forever, get ready." He said to me and walked out again, leaving me alone to cry silently.

What was I going to do to be free?

I felt really ashamed and humiliated.

Why me?

My whole body was in deep pain. I had bruises from my head to my toe and to worsened the matter, no other person other than my mate did to me.

"Moon goddess, what did I do wrong? Is this how I'll end?" My tears choked me up and I began another round of crying.

Is this love?

How could my mate be ruthless to even me?

As usual, my questions were met with silence. No one answered me.

The marks of the scars Alpha Roman left on my body was indelible, I was never going to forget it. It made me even cry the more and hope for some miracle.

Moon goddess, save me. I cried out.

I slowly crawled my way into the bathroom and as the first slide of water touched my body, the pain intensified even more but I didn't care.

The pain I felt inside of me was unbearable. I was tired of crying, I wanted to do something else. Looking through the bathroom mirror, I couldn't recognize myself, I looked like an alien.

Bruises and scars were all over me, I looked different from my other self.

Was this really me?

How long was this torture and pain going to last?

I had prayed and hoped that this was some pathetic story but sadly, it wasn't. This was my reality.

"I hate you Alpha Roman, you'll pay for this.." With that, I passed out.