Seven

7

" I saw how you were looking at him," Helen said and glared at me . I dropped the coffee cup in my hand raising a brow as I didn't know what she was talking about. Was I confused? No, I wasn't, just surprised" I mean Hector" she smiled, sipping her cup with a raised brow and staring out the glass window at our side where the car was packed with Hector, my new bodyguard and mate in nature was standing.

I made an ' oh ' sound following her gaze out the window at where he stood. So he was Hector? I said the name as if I was tasting it out on my tongue and with a slight nod I wanted to tell his name. It felt as if I had gained something, knowing his name was more than enough to make me smile. I could have guessed it but hell, I didn't think that far.

Smooth name for a handsome Lycan!" I know he is handsome but don't get your hopes up and besides...." she sounded like I was doing something wrong and surely I was. I didn't expect her to be my friend like mine because she was still Ezra's sister" and?" I frowned, not sure what was going on in my head. I hated what I was thinking but what if he already had a chosen mate?

Has he mated already? My heart started shaking in my chest" my brother would kill him before he got to taste you. I will save both our heads if I were you" I turned to stare at her in relief. She sounded pretty serious as if staring was a huge crime.

Was that supposed to be a threat?

" I'm not threatening you though, just a pretty cool piece of advice" she smiled and I stared at him again.

I hoped it was easy to stop staring and thinking about him.

I nodded, licking my lips.

" that won't happen," I said with a heavy heart, slipping a biscuit in my mouth. I swallowed afterward like I didn't mean what I said and indeed I didn't. I didn't even understand what I just spat. I didn't believe in my own words because it was mine against Aria's. It was hard dealing with both my mate whom I would be seeing every second plus Aria who wanted nothing except her mate. Fighting both the pull and my wolf was a whole lot of work.

How could mere words from me feel like I was rejecting him? I wished I could tell the world that Hector was my fated mate but who was I kidding? How could I fight Ezra?

I wasn't ready for a rejection either.

At least not with my desires flaming up each time I see him, I couldn't define what tomorrow would hold but I was more than scared to think of the future.

Hector wasn't an attraction I could just fight with a little effort. I couldn't just discard him from my mind because it was impossible and somehow a No for me and my demanding wolf who lived inside me. She won't give in since she so much wanted him more than life itself.

I didn't have any confidence in myself anymore, I felt like I was losing to him and to make matters worse he was my guard which means he would be following me everywhere I go. Wasn't that more like hating him all to myself?

How could I possibly resist him when he was always invading my senses with his intoxicated scent?

The feeling of being sophisticated was seriously killing me. Not to talk of the burning desire to touch him and mark him. When did I become this mess up?

Like I could do anything about it!

" like to order something else?" Helen's voice brought back my sanity. I didn't realize I was lost at it again. Helen didn't seem to notice so I played all cool. I smiled, sipping out the rest of my coffee.

Apart from his distraction, going on with Helen was great. The girl had it all wrapped up. She was a great planner and I admired her. The coffee was the best I have ever had or maybe because I don't normally immerse in it?

After the wonderful experience in the coffee shop, we headed to a singles restaurant! I was confused at first when Helen mentioned it but after she explained, I nodded with a smirk. Such a thoughtful pack!

I didn't realize single wolves needed to be separated from the mated ones. It was such an unfair treatment. " don't get me wrong," Helen said with a smile seeing the confused look on my face. If not then what? " it's not like what you are thinking" she gave out a small laugh" it was just for fun. Some single wolves prefer hanging out at less or no romantic zones" she explained " like yourself" I said and we both laughed to it as Hector pulled over in front of the luxurious joint.

As usual, he waited outside beside the car for us to finish. He was always attracting the attention of beautiful women. I rolled my eyes feeling a little annoyed with how the young she wolves were flirting with him.

The few days I spent with her made me aware of how much of a freeloader she was. Always spending and partying and goodness! I was turning to be like her as I was the one to ask her out. It was kind of hard to believe I had such a character in me. Ezra wasn't one bit worried about me, I guessed he trusted that hottie of a warrior a lot. I still haven't talked to him yet because I was afraid of what might transpire or maybe what he might say to me. He was more of a stone being than Cooper was. I thought Cooper was a robot but he was more of that.

He would sometimes stare at me and when I met his gaze, he would storm it off as if he wasn't looking just like now.

" I will go get him to dance with me" she yelled trying to beat the music in the background. We were present in one of the pack's clubhouses and Helen was hell on earth. Everyone in the club knew her as most of the males turned to ask her for a dance but the arrogant alpha female would reject them by waving them away. She was a fire in liquid, who would have thought such a person existed among noble families? Talking of noble families, Ezra's parents haven't left yet and it was very draining considering how they disliked me. I was certainly unhappy with Helen's plan but could I do anything except wait for him to reject her. I hated the way she had been pestering her for the past few days. She has been on his neck trying to get Hector onto her bed but in the end, I turn out to be the happiest because he didn't think twice about denying her.

I used to think he was too cold but I was growing to like him because of how he easily ignored Helen and her tempting moves" wish me luck" just like right now. I was confident he wouldn't give in but for some reason I was annoyed.

Instead of wishing her like she asked I cursed her under my breath as I looked back at Hector who was sitting in the corner of the room.

Maybe because she was crushing on my mate. She was very flirty! And I started to hate her for that. Only the goddess knew how much I was playing for her to find her fated mate and leave ' mine ' alone.

A frown settled on my face, did I say mine? I doubt I knew what I wanted. When I was leaving my pack, I had only one person in mind to please but upon reaching here everything turned into a mess.

Especially when my mate turned out to be my bodyguard and a snobbish Lycan. What an irony!

I was happy seeing him all the time, I just didn't know if I could always be on my best behavior around him. He was so hot and the pull was killing. How long would I keep up with it? How much longer should I continue to tighten my desires?

I dragged my sorry ass outside as soon as I saw Helen talking to him. I knew I would tie her into shears if I stayed. My heart was hurting, I could be very taught but weaker when it comes to him.

I pushed open the door without looking back. If there was nothing I had learned from this, I have come to know who Hector was. He was my strength and weakness. With him beside me, I do things that were impossible for me to do years ago.

Just like the other day, I poured a hot coffee on a waitress because she was eyeing him. I smiled bitterly as I walked down the road. I couldn't head back on my own because there weren't cabs around and it was like an hour's drive to the pack house.

I went to a nearby perk after walking for like ten minutes. The place was shining bright despite it being dark outside. " Hey, Kiki! Catch the ball!" I felt like joining them and venting out my frustration. I wanted to die!

It felt as if I was losing a part of me whenever I see Helen making a move on him and don't know the hurting part?

The fact that I could call him mine hurt a lot, a tear flipped out. He was mine but I couldn't claim him and for what?

Instead of feeling jealous, I was damn afraid. I was afraid I might lose my mate to another woman for good. Hector wasn't abundant; he was scarce. I see how most female Lycans look at him whenever we go out. Everyone wanted him except me!

Yes except me, his mate!

Did I want to claim him? Did I want him like mates do want each other? I sat on an empty bench looking at them. The playing pups" that was an excellent shot!" a tall male strode toward them out of nowhere.

My eyes were fixed on them but my mind was elsewhere. I couldn't control my thoughts. Aria had been silent since we arrived, she would only announce Hector's present and then ....... Silence .......

She only recognizes him and him alone. I thought of how they might be cuddling in each other's arms and swaying to the music. The thought of her touching him made me want to beat my head for it or better yet kill her for it.

What could hurt more than losing a part of you you cherish most?