Pain and regrets

"You may now kiss the bride.." said the judge who married us.

I looked at Kiyo with a smile. I've been waiting for this day for a long time!

Even though it was an arranged marriage, I couldn't help but be happy. It's just the beginning because I love Kiyo so much. I still remember the day I met him. How stuck!

Flashback..

"Mom! I don't want! I don't want it! Dad, help!" I begged dad as mom pulled me down to my bed.

I'm still sleepy! Argh!

"Get up there. We have a visitor later, get ready.." dad told me making me frown.

"You don't love me anymore.." Anas frowned and entered the bathroom without hesitation.

"Be beautiful douther!" Said mom then giggled. I just suffered from nothingness.

"I used to be pretty, mama!"

I heard their soft laughter. Annoying! I'm still sleepy, my gosh! Those habits are very important!

I spent some time in the bathroom and stared at the mirror. What will I do again? Bathing by the way.

I looked like a zombie who walked under the shower then turned it on.

"MAMAAAA, days ago ago! !

I went down our stairs with a frown and then sat down in our kitchen.

"Oh what are you wearing? Go change!" Mom yelled at me then glared at me.

I looked at my clothes. There's no problem right?

"What's wrong, ma?" I asked and poked a hot dog, but before I could do that, mom patted my hand so I couldn't poke it.

"Mom!" I snorted and hit it.

"Hija, get changed. We have a visitor later, adjust your actions. You are a young woman.." said papa folding me.

Annoying! What do they have a problem with what I'm wearing? I'm only at home, so what should I wear at home!

"That's because.." I heard my brother's groin. I glared at him.

"What? You have a problem with me too?" I will be with him.

"Lah, I'm not saying anything?" He then said I was annoyed. I was about to throw the fork at him when dad suddenly called me by my full name which annoyed me.

"Kendall Sofie, stop that. You Rafael, you've been pestering your sister every morning. Get ready and we'll have a visitor!"

Kendall Sophie? Yak. Drop that Sofie, gosh. So girly!

"This dad is not joking. What can I do, they are targeting Sofie?" My sister said so I threw the fork at him.

"Argh! I don't want Sofie, can I?!" And he really stressed that word, it's exhausting!

And then what? I'm their target? What will they do? Are they going to sell me? Do they not want me anymore? Wow!

"Oh why are you crying there?" Mom asked me.

"Waaa! Mom, promise I'll wake up early! I won't be a scold!" I then hugged him and buried my face in his neck.

"What are you talking about there?"

"Don't sell me to our guest mom!"

They laughed while my sister was shocked. Why? They even laugh at me!

"It's not like that, dougther. Oh my, for sure when you see your friend's daughter, you will really sell!" sHe then laughed at me.

"Mom! You're still laughing at me, huh!"

"dougther, this is your uncle Jeron and aunt Azzir..."

Mom introduced me to our beautiful and handsome guests. Gosh, I didn't expect this.

We are at the table and just about to eat.

"Hi. I'm Kendall S-Sofie.." I shyly introduced myself. I looked at the young man next to them. So handsome!

"..and this is Kiyo Ace, your soon to be fiance.."

"What?!" We shouted together when the name was Kiyo.

"Mama, even if it's handsome, I don't want it!" I was interested in them and stood up at the dining table. So is Kiyo.

"Mom, what's this?" He asked in shock.

Gosh, he's really handsome!

End..

"Stop smiling.." I just woke up from those memories when Kiyo spoke next to me.

we are already in the reception area and sitting while the guests are busy eating.

I suddenly felt sad remembering what happened earlier. He didn't kiss me.

I smiled bitterly. After all, it's all planned. What can I expect, right?

"Uhm, Kiyo. Can we go home now? I'm tired.." I said shyly to him then plopped down on the table in front of us.

"Not yet. No honeymoon will happen.."

I felt pain when he said that but I didn't show it.

"I k-know, I'm just saying that I'm tired and sleepy. I didn't say that's what I meant--"

He interrupted what I was saying. "Whatever.."

I just went to it and removed my hands from the table then played with them on my thighs.

"Hey! Isn't there a kiss there!" Threat of one of our guests. I remember him, he's Kiyo's friend! I forgot the name. Is it Luke?

"I'm sorry but my wife is tired.." said Kiyo then grabbed me by the waist. I heard screaming and shouting.

I just blinked and swallowed as I bent over.

"Why does our bride look sad?" Said one.

"Looks like a honeymoon!" One of them burst out laughing. The crowd was filled with laughter which warmed my cheeks.

"Kiyo.. let's get out of here.."

"no"

I was just swallowed by his authoritative voice. It's really embarrassing! Aaaah!

When the celebration was over, we each went home. Mind you, Kiyo's parents gifted us a house and we are going there now.

When we arrived, I immediately threw my body on the sofa even though I was still wearing my gown. Tired!

"Stand there, you're in the room..." he coldly said to me.

I frowned and was about to go straight when his phone stopped me from ringing.

I looked at him and I could clearly see the joy and sadness in his eyes as he looked at the caller.

It's her.

"Hello love?" Kiyo said and turned and went outside.

I just laughed bitterly as I watched his back walk out. Going out and leaving his wife.

What do I have against his girlfriend? I'm just his wife in papers. No feelings allowed. I'm just attached to their love.

Fuck my feelings..